In Chinese mythology there is the story of the Dragons Gate. This is the tale of Koi carp, each spring they swim up from the sea to the yellow river and its waterfalls. They fight a battle against adversity and obstacles but continue to be courageous and strong till they get to the top pool. At the top of the final waterfall is the Dragons Gate, Koi who are brave enough and manage to clear the final waterfall turn into a powerful dragon.
In relation to my journey I feel this fits very well, for years I have struggled to comfortably fit in, understand people and be myself. I knew there was something different about me, on top of everything else I also had sensory differences from other people and I did not fully understand why.
After looking at many things, at the age of 46 I realised I am autistic, I was very lucky that within a year I received my official diagnosis. This has been like a freedom, everything started to make sense and suddenly it allowed me to be who I have always been, but with more confidence.
A New Understanding of Myself
My son was diagnosed autistic at age four. This prompted me to research ways to understand and support him.
What Kindness Means to Me
To begin with, I am going to tell you some of the things that people have done to me, to my autistic family members, and to my autistic friends and colleagues all in the name of kindness.
My Lived Experience
It’s strange when someone asks me to talk about ‘my experience of autism’ because for me that’s as odd as being asked what my experience is of having blue eyes.
Masking is something that has become much more talked about recently as understanding of autism has grown, but what is masking, why do we do it, and what is the impact of masking?
An Undiagnosed Autistic Life
A childhood full of confusion and fear. Loving family, but so often misunderstood.
What knowing I am autistic means to me
After 39 and a half years of not knowing what made me tick, why I communicated and behaved the way I did, I finally got confirmation that I am autistic.
My Autistic Journey
In relation to my journey I feel this fits very well, for years I have struggled to comfortably fit in, understand people and be myself.
Growing Up Undiagnosed
I was diagnosed as autistic at age 21, which was eleven years ago. I had spent my entire life feeling different from everyone else, not quite fitting in, but not knowing why.
Trusting What Remains
I know that I don’t trust my processing of this world, I cannot. My eyes get visual overload whenever there’s a light that is coming in too sharp; when it hits me...